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Well guess who’s back? Of course the one and only so to all my friends who have missed this shadow my return is swift and without fail. Sad however for the remaining fact that my computer was dead for almost a month now. The good news is that I’ll be back so for those of you who wished me a marry Charismas thank you. When that last computer started to fail I was left wandering just how come all computers that have come into my hands fail and to my surprise it was all due to the last computer having some inner problems with the hard drive. Four days before Charismas I able to gain a new well ok not new but used computer thanks to a loving grandmother with a slightly odd personality. However the dang tower and new drive are slower then the last . Oh well make the best out of what you have right ?. Well to all my friends this is what happened.
I falling into a deep could of shadows. Life Time moves slowly and light fadeing into a could of Dusk
Pain and rage the only thing left out side this moonlighted pain. Feathers broken turning into white fur as it dances on whispering wind.
The silence of broken hope and the rage of the past together form the shape of a beast. Still falling into sorrow the memorys of friends and dreams of old rush in whispering notes.
Remembering to fight on through the dark coulds of dusk. Voices of true ones dancing in the memory of whisdom. Their hope giveing to new reasons to go on
The rages slowly fades into a protection and freedom that speaks to the shadows. Breakeing through walls to find a new path, the will to fight goes onward.
I've know some very close friends of mine aways in the middle with my famliy and discontecting with them that aways how life seem for my path. However the ones who are aways there by myside are the Friends that I've made at Usachatnow.com. There the ones who have been there for sense day one of starting off, they never turned me away not for one moment at all during the day, sometimes the best thing is just stepping out to help them for all the thing they have done. As for listening to my problems in my life there the ones who bring light to the Darkness in this world, they are the ones who I put my time in for cause they care for me, in return I would do anything for them cause they know what life is like and dealing with lifes problems can seem like a wildfire at times. Turely they are the best and there is no one better then them at all,and I would help them no matter what. In times of darkness there the ones who i got to, in times of pain they cure it with there good hearts, Friends are hard to fine but if you be yourself as I've learned then they repesct your for that 
Count down
Many hours of life are ticking away, and a deep fear plague a soul of light. Like a black cat on Halloween running after rats in the grass. Ghosts run through my being, controlling my past and future. Understanding life can not be found in a book but in words of wisdom as family says. In my own prizing cell my shadows of darkness only thing keeping me SANE! The out side world keeps on spinning but, even they most be tested!
Today is another day , but the Darkness that I lived with iside has left my Body, now at a cross roads I stand, changeing the time I can't not do but looking toward new thing on the road. My throughts playing out in my mind at the time , I was siting inside wonderig if light had finaly opened for me. I felt new , at peace as I watched the wind blow throught Flowers in our neighbor's garden outside the window. Perhaps now it time to stop being in the middle and help others. Riped between I had the ablity to do acts of Evil or acts Good. Now at this cross roads in my mind, I changeing for good. My new self gives to others and it makes me pround to be there for them. What ever happens I'm still the same only more so, the rest is up to time to help make the change, what ever happens we all can do, as my throughts left I looked y