What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn’t even keep it true
You said were you’d forever be there
But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear
I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there’s not an us…never
You said you’d always be there for me
But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you’ve pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that’s not what I heard…
Who am I?
I often wonder what people see when the hear me speak or look into my eyes. Do they see a woman who is intelligent, funny, confident, or happy? Or do they see a woman who feels alone, puts up a facade and is unsure about herself and life?
Im not sure which I want them to see...maybe all of it, maybe not.. If they saw all of me,would their opinion of me change?
Its said that we are the hardest on ourselves, and I know I am, always trying to be better. Better mom, better friend, better daughter, sister, but yet I feel like I seem to always fall short. Most times I say fuck it and be the best I can be at that time, but a small part of me gets lost. Like now..
I don't really have much of a point to this "Blog" im not even sure why im typing it, typical me with my rambling, ignore it. This is the most you will see of the girl inside. Its a side I don't show often nor care too. Ignore this blog, just girl who is lost and rambling.
" I felt like I was standing at a great precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who cared... or even noticed."